English poetry

 It's been quite a while since I wrote something. This is not some poetry or any artistic bullshit its just my rants so, read it if you like. I have lost some part of me that was so dear to me, the dark side of me that would constantly look into the void and see it staring back. The nothingness and void has been filled, or at least that's how i feel. Even though it is replaced by "something" i am not sure if it is all color but hey at least it is something, right? At least i feel fulfilled finally after so so long. The black is replaced by something grey and that's something to be joyful about i guess. Shit has been alright lately, things are not the worst. Nothing is as planned (if only i had a plan lol) but it's alright can't complain. Sometimes here and there i catch myself zone out for a sec either looking at the moon or towards a constellation, but i haven't had those episodes of endlessly staring at the ceiling lying on the bed. I've been hav...

What a tragedy it is Love, a sacred curse     A spell on the heart Drives a person mad Like a figurine on strings It dwells the lover into madness A madness of cravings Cravings for more  More of the beloved Their sight and odor Like an addict craving For the needle to pierce a vein I crave for you always To destroy me my love All over again and again Their touch and attention The warmth of their embrace Comfort of their company Slow yet steadily now Love feeds on it all Love happens but once A feeling that can’t replicate No matter what they offer Can’t outweigh what was The heavy load of love 

Dear love What are you? The more I think I understand you, the more you surprise me with a face I have never seen before. Are you the wave of sadness that takes over a child when he loses his favorite toy, or are you the tears of the mother who aches for the sight of her dead son? Are you the silence of the father who hugs his son to war or the cries of the 30-year-old woman who just lost her husband to cancer? Perhaps you are the late-night thoughts of a teenage boy who dreams of being noticed by this one fellow human or the diffidence of a girl to face this one boy at school who she thinks is the smartest guy in the universe. You might even be the desire of the young student who bunks his school to play cricket or the torment of his teacher who tells him not to. Sometimes, it all feels like an illusion, something that we hold on to just because of our instinctive need to be with someone, but then my heart pounds against my chest, almost breaking my ribs, reminding me of a peace it h...

I remember that first night we stayed up past 3 am and all we did is talk i remember  thinking that i could listen to you talk forever and how i've never felt that way about anyone before i remember  that night  at 3 am that was the momemt  i fell in love

 Will You (Continued...) We laughed again and talked a lot I thought we made a difference We promised for shared future shots Over the cries of vengeance We promised to see the world along We promised to get drunk at our bar We promised not to let one alone We promised to stay same despite how far Then the day of 15th july The day of grief and darkness I tried to stay all polite Failing to conquer the void or part I wanted to tell you everything A story that would bring you pain I cannot tell you no matter what The trust in your own will fade You always deserve to be happy Maybe i was an unknown thorn Am glad you threw one thron away Yet the thorn loves you in a way his own You told me to keep a diary I did and started writing The words were hard to swallow Every syllable a tale of fighting I hoped the day after that To get killed or die ASAP Although broke a bone or two You never asked… ugh! My bad I do have reasons to hate me A cut for every look in the mirror A river of tears be...

   Will You? I latched on to a broken twig To hold myself from falling      When i was pushed by a lovely fig Dreams with whom compelling                                                                                      I knew it from the first day though No matter what am not her type Not caring the heart starts jumping slow Regardless of the brains hype We met someday, a heavenly place She recognized, i felt am high I asked bout her life n friends She roasted everyone on sight The apocalypse passed in silence We never met nor shared a word Your thoughts flew without licence Like some pretty little bird Then day thee came, Finally We met again me overjoyed I spent the day looking at you From a blindspot of y...